Girlfriends

I finally saw the Sex And The City movie last night with Scott.  Why would I go see such an obvious chick flick with my boyfriend? That is because I don't have any girlfriends.  That is right, I don't have a Samantha, Miranda, Charlotte or Carrie to call my own.  As I sat there watching the groups of girls laughing and giggling their way to their seats, I wondered what was wrong with me that I didn't have that connection to my female counterparts.  I always found it hard to maintain female connections.  It is not from lack of trying.  As I got older, things happened.  I had one friend that I met through my last job but since I left, somewhere along the way, it was severed. I tried to find out the reason, but never received a response.  So I wish her well.  I also found out that I can't go back to my childhood friend.  After 20 years, we finally reconnected but it was a very short reconnection.  After a few emails back and forth, she too has dropped out of site.

As well, trying to infiltrate an already established group can be just has hard.  They already have their own code of talking which is hard to jump into.  They have their own way of doing things.  I still have hope that one day I will have a small group or even one girlfriend that I can laugh with over a cup of tea (I don't like coffee) or go shopping, or just watch all the other group of girlfriends laughing with each other as they walk down the street.  But until then, I have my boyfriend.  He doesn know how to pick out the best outfits for me.!